Tuesday, April 7, 2015

Independence Day

As many of you already know, I have had a cast on my dominant left hand for six weeks.  Before that it was a large bulky splint for two weeks following surgery.  I did this to myself.  I have arthritis in both thumbs, along with my hips, knees, etc.  . . .  I had the right thumb repaired four years ago.

Let me repeat - I did this to myself.  I chose to have the surgery to end the pain, so that I can continue to do the things I like to do.  Like write, garden, needlework, sew, crochet, even sleep.  Prior to the surgery, I had pain most days and many nights.  That will be over soon.

All of this only gives you background on why I am blogging about my thumb.  I’m really not. I’m writing today about my lack of independence for the last eight weeks.  I can’t drive. I can’t button or zip my pants (thank heaven for elastic waists). I can’t feed myself if the food requires the used of a knife. I can’t wash dishes or cook or make the bed.  I can’t - I can’t - I can’t.  The list is endless.

What have I learned from this experience?  I like my independence.  I like doing for myself.  I like having both hands.  I have learned what it is to be handicapped even in such a small way.  I have learned to rely on others.  I have learned to have patience - a hard lesson for me.  I learned to sit and do nothing to relieve the pain after surgery.

Will I remember these lessons?  Probably only some of them.  Tomorrow the cast comes off, and physical therapy begins. I look forward to that pain.  I look forward to typing with two hands.  I look forward to spring.  I look forward to using both hands even to do the chores I hate. I look forward to wearing jeans.

I look forward to thanking God for creating doctors that can provide me with this alternative to living the rest of my life in pain.  I will thank God for giving me back the ability to live as I want to live.  As a historian, I know that our forefathers and mothers did not have this option.  They had to adjust to the pain - to live with it.  I think this made them stronger.  It also made some of them figure out ways to end pain and cure disease.  Praise be! Tomorrow is Independence Day!

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